I am a Beautiful Disaster because I am a survivor. I have survived rape (multiple times), mental and verbal abuse for 11 years that turned into physical abuse. I have survived two different men trying to kill me. Instead of letting it tear me down, I use it to thrive.
I identify with Beautiful Disaster brand because I am a survivor and I don't back down. No matter how many times I've been beaten down, I still rise up and keep going. I was married for 11 years to a man who used, abused, cheated, and raped me multiple times. When I got the nerve to finally get divorced, he faked a suicide attempt in an attempt to get me or the woman he was cheating with to stay. He had his timing off and passed away. The next man I got with seemed his complete opposite. 6 years later, my son who was 16 at the time would have to pull him off me cause he got drunk and tried to choke me to death. I packed mine and my 3 kids (ages 1, 4, and 16 at the time) stuff and moved from Ohio to Kentucky. He kept the house that I put $20,000 down on (was supposed to put me on the deed and didn't), my car that had to be put in his name cause my credit was horrible (thanks to my husband taking loans out in my name to buy stuff for the women he cheated with). We went from a 1900sq foot home to one that is 398 square feet. I have a landlord who is more like a slumlord. The house has more drafts than the NFL and the appliances keeps breaking. He naturally blames me and said a few months ago that I had to get rid of my kids toys cause they only needed 5 toys each, if I didn't I would need to find a new place. During this time, I find out that someone pretended to be me and checked my dad out of a nursing home. I searched for a year only to find out he passed away in August 2020. I lost the last year of his life because of a crazy psycho. The car that I bought with income taxes just had the back windshield shatter and needs all new tires. I sold my engagement ring set and was going to use that to find a better car but naturally my phone and laptop broke my 3rd day of working. So I am doing my best to save up. I am working 3 jobs from home cause I cant afford a babysitter.
This last year and a half (we moved July 2020), I have struggled. I was lucky if I had $20 extra. This has been the first time since I was 19 years old (I am 37 now) that I have been single. It has been liberating and proved to myself that I don't need a man to take care of me. I can do it myself and I will do whatever is needed for my kids. I am starting to love myself again and figure out what exactly happy feels like. I post daily Affirmations in my business groups because I want to build others up.
My favorite item is the You Don't Know My Story Line. I had the shirt, Zip up hoodie, and lounge pants but lost all but the hoodie in the move and haven't been able to replace them. Once Im fully on my feet, in a better house with a decent car, I am gonna replace the items I lost, I purchase a few more. Its my favorite cause It reminds me that my story isn't finished and I can survive anything.