She Never Gave Up Hope - Anonymous

She Never Gave Up Hope - Anonymous

A lot of us women have a story to tell and this is mine. I grew up with alcohol, drug, and sexual abuse. I was molested and sexually abused by my step father for 4 years from the age of 10-13. I told my mom and he was sent to prison. I met a guy and got pregnant at the age of 15. Shortly after, the guy left me and I dropped out of high school. When I was 5 months pregnant, I met my husband. We’ve been married for 26 years now and have 3 beautiful grown children.
At 18 I got my GED. Over the years with my husband, we’ve been through hell and back with each other. His infidelity lead to my drug use in 2008. I was a stay at home mom at the time he was making 100k+ a year. My habit was costing me 1k a week!! He had an accident at work and I had to nurse him back to health (while on meth). I was a “functioning” addict.
The income stopped, my habit was still strong, and we ended up losing everything. House, car, pride but we never lost each other. I had to apply for government assistance to feed my family. We were never homeless as my husband always pulled through for us no matter what. When I was able to see clearly, I couldn’t believe that our own families never even offered even their damn garage to sleep in! When we had money, they were ALWAYS around.
I put my feet on the ground prior to us losing it all and got clean, cold turkey style, in 2009. It was a rough ride and it sure as hell wasn’t easy! When I applied for government assistance in 2011 I had to do some community service for the benefits and job search. They set my hours up with my county’s human services office. I did it for 1 month and was offered a full time position. I was a food stamps/Medicaid tech for 4 1/2 years. 
In 2012, I was diagnosed with endometriosis, had a hysterectomy and underwent awful medical treatment. After the surgeries I had gotten a hernia...uuuugh what else was life going to throw at me?!?!? Went for a hernia repair in 2015 that went wrong due to mesh. From 03/15-10/15 I had 6 abdominal surgeries where they cut me open each time. Due to me exhausting my FMLA, I was terminated at the County office. I fell in to a deep depression and felt that I would never be given another chance at having another career. I never gave up hope though.
In 2018, I was offered a job for SCL health working as a Financial Counselor at one of the hospitals. I’ve climbed the ladder and am working for the corporate office now. In 2019, I lost my sister who was like my second mom. We weren’t talking at the time of her death due to her demons. I fight everyday to keep going and I know one day it will get easier. Through everything that’s been thrown at me...my faith has been what’s kept me going. Every obstacle has taught me a lesson and has made me stronger than EVER! I am a BEAUTIFUL DISASTER! What didn’t kill me made me stronger!
I ran across Beautiful Disaster on Facebook. My favorite collection(s) are In Loving Memory, Perfectly Imperfect, Butterfly, and Stronger. Heck, ALL of them!! They all have a meaning to my story. I am far from perfect and that’s okay.  What I went through, it didn’t kill me, it made me stronger and I came out to be a BEAUTIFUL, STRONG butterfly who put her past to rest. A lot of us  women have a story and never be ashamed of your past…tell it and tell it without any regrets 😘 Thank you for reading this and thank you for sharing with us all the beautiful quotes and apparels.
- Sincerely Anonymous

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Comments

Danielle Damico 15 days ago

STAY STRONG, an Love Ya Self…..Ladies we have endured Alot of pain and suffering and I just recently experienced my 3rd pregnancy buy had a miscarriage…..smh we have to stand strong an show others…..to many underestimate us..so we ARE STRONG AND WE ARE THE Best BEAUTIFUL DISASTERS EVER……LOVE YA LADIES….WE GOT THIS….

Kelli OBryan October 6 2021

I entered the foster system to try to help children in need. But I needed them too. My husband and I couldn’t have children and we couldn’t afford to adopt. He suggested Foster Care. We did everything and right after I hung up our license we received a call about 2 sisters and a brother. At first I was hesitant. I thought we would start out with 1. Then the man told me about the baby. She had been burned at 9 days old. She was 6 mos old and needed a lot of care, we were a treatment home. That’s what we were here for. I said bring them over. I didn’t know how much those words would change my life. We were only supposed to have them 15 months, we had them 3&1/2 years. Case workers came and went, but the last o II be didn’t like the fact that my husband and I were a mixed couple. I’m so light, most people don’t really pay attention to us. But this lady had it out for us the minute she saw my husband walk through the garage door. Within the month, the kids I adored were gone. I fought for them, even their bio mom wanted them to stay with us. But they took them to a home that almost let my son drown, kept the 3 year old in a high chair all day. Once locked her in their trailer and thank God my oldest daughter went looking for her sister. Bio mom told CPS of all the issues going on there and the foster parents own daughter told on them. They ended up in a respite home over that summer. They said it was nice. They were finally put with a lady with a son and her father, who was their real caregiver. She actually watched out for the kids. After that they went to bio mom. She started out fine, but within a 2 year period she and the father were on heroin and homeless. Me and their grandmother, who begged me to come get the 3 oldest. By this time there was s baby Girl. After a year of trying to deal with mom and clothes vouchers we knew we had to get our license back, we did. Once bio mom lost her rights, we adopted them 11/25/2019. Life has been challenging because the 3 year of d is now 11 snd she Is struggling and I am going. To help

Julia Gypsy October 5 2021

Keep growing stronger beautiful sister ❤ ODAAT

Marsha Briggs October 4 2021

I am also a survivor of domestic abuse.

Becky Sexton October 4 2021

You are a beautiful woman to be very proud of! I admire you telling your story and beating your demons! You are someone to always be admired. Thank you for telling your story and staying the course. Be proud of yourself everyday and know we all admire and support you!

Jeanene Berry October 4 2021

You are a warrior!

Dale Fow October 4 2021

Thank you for sharing your story it’s very inspiring and gives me hope that I to will one day be able to look back at my past and put all those demons to rest.Agin thank you 🙏 so much

Linda Daniels October 4 2021

Thank you so much for being strong enough to tell your story. I still have trouble opening up even in therapy because I was ALWAYS told “do not tell what goes on in fami” especially when I was married to a VERY abusive, controlling man.

Adrianne October 3 2021

Thank you Renee, your story touched my heart and you are strong and loved by all of us God Bless and keep your head up! Every Saint has a past every sinner has a future!

Lorie October 3 2021

You are so inspiring. Thank you for sharing.

Meshe October 3 2021

🦋.. What a testament of strength and courage. As a woman in recovery who’s journey start a long time ago. Butterflies have always been my go to, they remind me of transformation. Thank you for sharing a piece of you.

Meshe October 3 2021

🦋.. What a testament of strength and courage. As a woman in recovery who’s journey start a long time ago. Butterflies have always been my go to, they remind me of transformation. Thank you for sharing a piece of you.

Amy October 3 2021

Everything I am living I feel in your story and the strangest thing is I have from your photo met you and definitely have seen you but where is blank so I am unsure what the reason behind seeing you on here and present life situation but I believe my life can’t show me any more of a sign than this you as I hope to be are a beautiful disaster cuz I till now though I’d only be in memory of so ty Renee

Amy October 3 2021

Everything I am living I feel in your story and the strangest thing is I have from your photo met you and definitely have seen you but where is blank so I am unsure what the reason behind seeing you on here and present life situation but I believe my life can’t show me any more of a sign than this you as I hope to be are a beautiful disaster cuz I till now though I’d only be in memory of so ty Renee

Brenda October 3 2021

You have been through so much Renee.. Stay Strong and Always remember You Fought and Didn’t Give Up, That Says A Lot!! You Are Strong and a Beautiful Disaster 🌹