I am 46 years young and my story starts real early, but I will start at 24. I met a man who I thought I knew, thought I fell in love and decided to have a baby. His ex girlfriend was pregnant and didn't want it. I stepped up, she was 6 months pregnant. After this beautiful baby boy was born I found out I was pregnant also. I told this man I wanted to be his sons mom. When I was 3 months pregnant, our relationship changed.

I was leaving him after he physically abused me, there was also verbal abuse, as well. He told me if I left I wouldn't see his (my) son ever again.  But, I was in love with this amazing 6 month old boy, so I stayed. 3 1/2 years later I let him move me to Kansas. My mom and brother came, but I left all my other family and friends in California. 

The abuse continued for many more years. I got pregnant again and had a beautiful baby boy.  My dad passed away and when he was sick I was 1600 miles away and I only saw my dad at his funeral. When he died I was told I couldn't cry. "It's a sign of weakness " all from my husband (at this time).

The abuse still going on, physically and mentally.  I was told if I left he would keep my kids from me. I didn't know any better at this time.

Fast forward - After 14 years and 8 months of him cheating on me and lying he got a girl pregnant.... yahoo the marriage was over. Being a single mom, I left my career as a GM of a restaurant and took a pay cut, so I can be home with my kids more. 3 1/2 years of struggling and being single I met the most amazing younger man who wouldn't take no about dating him as an answer lol. He wowed me like crazy. We fell in love and my (our) kids love him. He treats us like we are the only people in the world.  We got married and life was good for 2 months, then my life took a turn.

My 12 year old son was diagnosed with a brain tumor.  Cancer the C word no one wants to hear. 3 brain surgeries, 6 rounds of chemo, 6 weeks of radiation,  IVIG, blood transfusion and bone marrow later he's is my HERO. He survived cancer.  He went through so much. He has his 9 month check up next month. During all of this, my oldest, who just joined the army, got kicked out and I had to go beg the judge not to send him to jail. He didn't go thank God..

I lost my job because of Covid. So we had a 1 in income household. After that, my daughter got in a car accident so bad they had to use the "jaws of life" to get her out. Again, thank God, she walked away. She said, "God knew I couldn't handle anything else". After that, I cut my leg on a boat propeller and had a reaction to my antibiotics and got neuropathy of my hands for 3 months. 

After that my oldest totaled his car, he walked away but the car was gone.

After my divorce from an abusive husband, I took 2 years of jujitsu and trained with Army soldiers for 1 year. I swore to myself no one would ever put their hands on me. There are lots more but my story is long enough.

I AM a Beautiful Disaster because I am still standing.  Life has thrown me lots and lots of lemons and I'm over here making margaritas. I have the love of my life and 3 of the best kids in the world. In 4 years our goal is to save enough money to get our HERO in a great Christian college in Riverside County or Orange County.  Plus, we need to find a house and jobs. I have been through so much so this goal is going to happen. Some how, but it will. 

My favorite item from BD is the shirt "You Don't Know My Story" I don't have it yet, but I will. This company made me realize that I really am BEAUTIFUL  with a lot of Disaster lol.

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March 10, 2022