Tammy's Story: Change Starts With Yourself
Hi everyone, my name is Tammy Benjamin and I have been down and got back up fighting for me, my life and my kids. In 2019, I attempted suicide as I was going through a divorce with my ex husband and dealing with making a home for the kids. I hit rock bottom and at time I didn’t think that there was anyway out for me finically, physically, emotionally and mentally.
The Beautiful Disaster brand shows me that I can literally have a messy life and somewhere in that mess I can stand tall and be beautiful in my own way, and not care about how others see me.
I was married for 21 years before I found out my ex husband was cheating on me and is gay. I divorced him in 2019 and my life kept going downhill from there…I lost my car, I lost my apartment and I lost my kids to their dad since he wouldn’t pay child support. Like I said, I attempted suicide in 2019 and 2020, and had to learn how to love myself and love who I am meant to be. It was hard and is still a constant struggle I deal with everyday. My mom passed away 20 years ago from Bone and Breast cancer and my dad died 4 years ago to Dementia. I have 3 siblings, but we don’t really talk to one another.
What made everything turn around? Me! That is what happened. I realized that if something or someone had to change, it had to start with me and how I see prospective on my life. I went on my own journey for a year to find myself and to see what I like, what I want out of life and how to go about doing it.
Right now my life is awesome. I will be married for a year on November 7 to my soulmate and best friend, my kids and I have a relationship, not the greatest, but I take what I can get right now. My husband and I bought a new house and in August I quit a job that I hated and am now working full time as baker at a local store. My siblings are still not coming around as much, but that’s okay. I am now trying to find out who my birth mom is slowly as money problems get in the way.
My all time favorite thing from Beautiful Disaster is probably everything, but I really love the Phoenix collection and the sweatpants.I love coming home from work and relaxing in them.