Stronger Today Than Yesterday: Kayla’s Fight to Reclaim Her Worth
What Makes You a Beautiful Disaster?
I am broken, but I don’t let it define me! I have trauma, anxiety, depression, and PTSD from my narcissistic ex-husband! I don’t let it stop me, and I keep going every day and smile! I lost my self-worth, but I am getting it back slowly.
Why Do You Identify with the Beautiful Disaster Brand?
Because I feel I turn my pain into something beautiful. I am turning it into power. I don’t let my story stop me. I am getting through every day! I refuse to let my past define me!
Tell Us Your Beautiful Disaster Story:
I was in a marriage with a narcissist who mentally and emotionally abused me for 15 years. I am now divorced, and I am free. I have been free for over a year and a half now. I used to be yelled at constantly and degraded. He tried running me over with a vehicle several times.
The last incident was with a knife, where I knew it was my breaking point. He threatened to kill me one last time, and I handed him the knife in our center console to do it, because I couldn’t handle being in the world or being with him anymore. I pushed through it, and I broke. I am in intense therapy and will be for the rest of my life.
I am stuck in fight or flight, and I suffer from trauma and PTSD. If I hear people yelling, I shut down and can’t talk. But I am working on it. I will get through it. I am getting stronger every day. I am stronger today than I was yesterday!
I have also, in my past, been sexually assaulted two times — once at 13 and once at 20.
What Happened for You to Turn It Around?
I started therapy, and I won’t let anyone treat me that way again. I know the red flags. I won’t ever let another man treat me the way he did — or anyone, for that matter. I am learning my self-worth. I may have lost my self-worth, but I am getting it back.
Name 3 Things You’ve Done to Move Closer to Happiness:
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Therapy is a big one!
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Slowly learning my self-worth!
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Taking time to do things I want to do for myself!
What Is Your Favorite Beautiful Disaster Collection, Past or Present, and Why?
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Perfectly Imperfect Zip Up (that I didn’t get a chance to get), which I would really like to get!
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A Queen Turns Pain Into Power (which I was just able to get — thank God!!!)
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A Darkness Turned the Stars Into Light (I wasn’t able to get that either — you are out of it!)
Comments
Joy McKee said:
Hello Kayla ,
Your not alone I am just now getting a divorce to my narcissistic abusive crazy ex husband myself of 10 years. I am here for you and I am beyond proud of you :)
Shannon said:
You are a very strong and beautiful woman. I applaud you for getting out of your situation. Much love.♡
Jennifer Banashak said:
Thank for be8ng so brave a sharing its thr hard rd this time do is talk because so many never listen this site is teaching me alotn!!!
Teresa Wright said:
Im still learning 😌
Kaycee said:
Kayla❤️ I Am Happy that You Broke through to the other side. It will take a while, but You will feel better and stronger each Day. You Are a Survivor & Will be Become a Warrior. Your Story will help Others. Thank You for Sharing!!!! People will now Look at Your Story to Help Them Get StRoNG❣️Very Proud if You.
Bernadine Irwin said:
I wear Beautiful Disaster clothing because even though I now have 50 years of sobriety (I almost died of alcoholism at age 29), I will always have some character defects. I ask God to “tap me on the shoulder when they are being manifested” and every day God taps me on the shoulder and I get to say, “I was wrong, please forgive me.” At the same time I am increasingly becoming all about UNCONDITIONAL LOVE & Bravery to Be Myself.
Dianna Barrera said:
I can understand where you have come from. I had been through that kind of hell myself. It still comes back to me at night. I’m glad you are in therapy. I’m sure it is helping you so much.
God Bless You!!!
Dianna
Cheyenne Redfeather said:
I truly appreciate and identify with your story,all my relationships have been extremely abusive and broke me at one point in time,I have and still am in therapy,learning to be my own beautiful self,learned to turn my pain into a beautiful powerful tool and I love the perfectly imperfect zip up as well and A Queen turns pain into power …unfortunately I am unable to afford either of these I live on a limited income but how I would love to have both ….thanks for letting me comment
Jen Gladu said:
Here is my story and most people want to not hear it because they are too involved in what is going on in their lives to bother hence why I love the clothing line. Recently I woke up in a new house, with a new job, in a wheelchair, with my only child passed away, and the doctors can’t even explain why. My job and I will say job not career SUCKS with every corporate line of bullshit they can provide. I have been out on disability, have struggled with holes in my clothes, left over makeup that smeared daily, but and there is a but I still keep on moving. It’s not for me, it’s for everyone else that feels that there is nothing left to live for.
Lauren said:
I am so proud of you!!! One step at the time. When you get where you want to be… there’s no better feeling!! I know you can do it. You are seen and NOT alone!!!
Michelle Talbot said:
Angel will always be my favorite, unfortunately my favorite zip jacket is to big for me after losing quite a bit of weight, which is a good thing,just don’t get wear it
Leann austin said:
I went through the same thing , I’m broke , but happy to have had the self worth and the strength to divorce the ex , lost my adult child in the process, because he told me straight up, “ if you divorce me, your daughter, will never talk to you again. That was her step dad, soooo, he couldn’t CONTROL me anymore, he went straight after my only adult child , he is a very cruel person , I won’t even call him a “man “, real men do not abuse women !!!! Thank goodness for this website, where abused women are not ALONE!!!!
Leann austin said:
I went through the same thing , I’m broke , but happy to have had the self worth and the strength to divorce the ex , lost my adult child in the process, because he told me straight up, “ if you divorce me, your daughter, will never talk to you again. That was her step dad, soooo, he couldn’t CONTROL me anymore, he went straight after my only adult child , he is a very cruel person , I won’t even call him a “man “, real men do not abuse women !!!! Thank goodness for this website, where abused women are not ALONE!!!!