Heather's Story: Learning To Love Myself
My entire life I have been a disaster! And some might would even call that an understatement, to say the least! From as far back as I can remember in my childhood I’ve always felt like a burden, never good enough, & always the person nobody wanted to be around!
I feel like I really started to identify with Beautiful Disaster Brand because it was what I wanted to be! I didn’t want to be just the disappointment or disaster in everyone’s life anymore, I wanted to be the BEAUTIFUL DISASTER!
From a childhood of growing up with a father who was physically, mentally, and emotionally abusive to my mom; to almost killing her one night! To be sexually abused as a child from the age of 5-12 at gun point, then raped at 17. I would definitely say my life has had its fair share of unpleasant events and that’s not even all of them, that’s just a few of the major ones that still haunt me today!
It has honestly been really hard to turn my past around! I’m extremely protective now, I watch every persons move! I have a hard time trusting people people, yet I still try to see the best in everyone!
I finally decided that I had to learn to love myself in order to let others love me! This has been extremely hard! It cost me my 20 year marriage, I lost the few friends I did have, but I had to learn to love myself again! It’s been one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, next to burring my daughter!
Right now life is a disaster and that’s the only way I can explain it! I’m trying to learn to love myself and find out just who I am! I’ve never been so lost feeling about myself and who I am and what my future holds. But what I do know is that I’m strong and I will eventually figure this out!
I absolutely love everything that I have purchased from Beautiful Disaster, my shirts that I got when I was 450 pounds I have sewn to make fit me now and all of my clothes that I have gotten recently I am obsessed with! I feel like every piece of clothing tells a piece of my life story!