Brandy's Story: My Beautiful Disaster
I can't say my life was always was always a mess because that would be a lie. Growing up I had a everything handed to me on a silver platter. I was a very lucky girl and blessed, but looking back I was a very ungrateful, spoiled lil girl who didn't know just how blessed she was.
That's when my life changes. My mother became ill at a young age. She was my number 1 fan. She was my best friend. She lost her life at the age of 41. I was 23. My life was turned upside down and I didn't know how to react to it so I did what I thought was gonna help me not think about it..I started drinking. As you can guess that didn't work to well and after my 3rd DUI I finally did jail time for the first time and though I didn't think at the time I needed it and still blamed everyone else, well trust me - I know now it was much needed. I had to do a year of weekend time and got 5 years probation. During that time, I saw just how bad some people have it and I saw how ugly the world was. I also became pregnant during this time with my son and when he was born I never drank again. I then knew I could've killed someone drinking and driving and what if someone had or does it to my child. So now that was out of the way and things were going great. I had my son, whom changed the way I thought the I lived and showed me exactly how much my mom did love me and man, she loved me. But then out of nowhere, when he was 3, his dad who just came in life decided he could give him a better life. While I was working 2 jobs and didn't own my home and still didn't have my driver's license back, I thought I was doing good and I was the happiest I ever been. And he has everything he needed, but all the judge saw was this man with a fancy lawyer and money so he granted him custody. About 8 months after I couldn't take the not getting out of bed, depression and feeling like my heart had been ripped out of my chest anymore. And I didn't have a care to even care anymore, so I tried meth for the first time. I started getting out of bed and doing things again even though I was living couch to couch because I lost everything my home and my jobs. But living that life was just me trying to drown my feelings again like I did when my mom passed.
In 2018, I went to the ER for a place on my face that was infected and they did a MRI where they discovered I had a huge brain aneurysm. I was a walking time bomb the doctor said and they rushed me to another hospital where 2 weeks later I had my first brain surgery to stop the aneurysm from bleeding and so it wouldn't rupture. But, still even though knowing in my heart that was God working and trying to tell me something, I still let my addiction get to me and chose it.
After my second surgery, I finally realized that God has me here for a reason and that I never want my son to feel the way I did when I lost my mom. And what would I be teaching him if I gave up. I am still getting my life together, but today I have a home, a job and a son who is doing so good. I have friends and family gang support me none stop also. And I can say I am richer in life today than I was when I was a spoiled lil bitch that didn't appreciate a thing. So much more has happened in between all the events that I just wrote about but one thing I can say is I am a survivors and I everyday I survive only makes me stronger to take on anything the world throws at me. When I learned to stop blaming everyone my life became so much easier when obstacles were thrown at me.
My name is Brandy. I am 44 years old. And I am a BEAUTIFUL DISASTER. I haven't been able to purchase any clothing from you, but I still love reading the stories. It helps me remember sometimes I don't have it so bad and I love seeing these women overcome so much.
Comments
Tammy said:
Incredible journey of faith, wisdom and humility. I relate some to your testimony and just want to say, on minute, one moment, one hour, one day works with anything life throws at you. I too am in recovery and have been for a long time. It took many years to realize that just staying clean and sober isn’t enough. There is a whole world to conquer and changing my “inside.”
Way to walk out if darkness and into the light!
Ranay said:
Brandy I know what you have been through has been rough and I’m sorry you had to deal with that. I want to extend an offer and buy you something from the site. If you allow me to let me know how to get it to you and what you would like. ❤️🥰
Brandi mayclin said:
Sorry for ranting about my life.. your story really touched me.
Be proud of yourself girl. It’s not easy to take responsibility and make the changes to live a better life. You had a lot of trauma to get through.
Love yourself and be proud of yourself. You are not alone girl.. ❤️❤️
#wedorecovey
Brandi mayclin said:
Wow what a story. I am not even sure how I got to this page to read it… I want to say from one Brandi to another when you finally realize pointing the finger at everyone else will not help you in life and you pick yourself up and take control that’s when you start living…
It’s been almost 3 years since my husband and I went to treatment. I was tired of living in HELL!! I was determined to do the work to change my life. I was also ready to walk away if my hubby didn’t make changes. Here we are today celebrating our 24th anniversary. My husband and I have the best relationship we ever had. I have a great relationship with my 22 year old daughter as well. My 25 year old son unfortunately is still pointing the finger at everyone else. I will always be here for him and love him from a distance. I will not enable him anymore.
I had to also surrender to GOD. I have peace in my heart knowing I don’t have control. I pray my son will get here one day.
When you are grateful for the small things it’s life changing. Thank you for sharing. Keep up the amazing work. ❤️
JustMe said:
Hey Brandy, I just wanted to tell you great job you know it’s never easy to do what you’ve done and to do it alone and keep losing until there’s no more to lose and then pick yourself up off the ground dust yourself off brush your damn teeth lol and become that person that you’re proud of and you did that, so good job girl keep your head up!!!!
Linda Kersten said:
This gal is a trooper and deserves good coming her way! Good for you!🤗🙏
Abigail said:
Thank you for your bravery in sharing your story. Sending you all the love & light across the interwebs 😘
Kelley said:
Thank you for sharing Brandy. Keep up the good work. I am so proud of you. You have fought many battles and won. You are definitely a warrior. Enjoy each and every day with your son. To him, you are a hero.💜💜