Christina Velazquez - Her Second Chance At Life & Love

Hi my name is Christina and I am 36 years old. I have 4 kids of my own and I've raised 4 step kids  -- oldest is 22 ,21,19,18, step and mine are 16, 10, 2, 1 . I grew up here in Oxnard, CA. My parents divorced and I have a sister who is 27. I grew up fast and I have had an addiction problem since I was 13. I have been in and out of institutions and jails.

I have done meth and pills. I was lost and I was looking for that love I was yearning from my dad he left and was a womanizer. He only gave me material love and what I really wanted was love. I would run away for weeks on end doing drugs ending up in places -- I don't know how I am still standing .

Hanging around in different areas, older people, and drug dealers you name it i've been through it. I remember at 17 in a hotel thinking I was going to get raped or killed and I left crying without my stuff using jiffy lubes phone to call my dad. At 18, I moved to Arizona with my mom who moved away with my little sister.

I tried to get clean and left my moms and found myself again with those people places and doing those things so I was 18 by myself running around from a different state got tasered by some guy. I found myself in a hotel with a drug dealer and him wanting to rape me and again in the rain -- I called California came back on a plane . I was 19 going on 20 but felt like 30 and then I relapsed. Again found myself another drug dealer who beat me up and locked me in hotel rooms so i pray and asked god please help me. I knew by getting pregnant that was the only thing going to change me. I had my daughter Bella, I stayed sober, got my first car and first job, and I relapsed when she was 3. I went to jail. cops took her away and I did 5 months.

I stayed sober and completed New Start For Moms, graduated from outpatient, got my certification in medical assistance. Finally things were falling in place. I never thought my life was going to be peaceful and I never thought I could recover, and today I am sober and I thank my god and my husband and my kids for forgiveness.

This is my second chance at life and self love this is why I am a Beautiful Disaster.

Thank you