Neesha's Story: Fear No Longer Holds Me
My name is Neesha. I was 31 when what I thought was going to end me happened. I started seeing a guy. He had a camper, I had a truck. What was supposed to be a weekend getaway turned into something I've only seen in movies. This guy had me so wrapped. He preyed on my vulnerability. I was attracted to his evil.
When we arrived at the camping spot he invited a couple friends. That was the first time I saw a glimpse of who he really was. Him and said friend had a disagreement. I stopped him from beating the kid with a steel pipe. Days passed and the mind games began. In tears I said I wanted to go home.
He turned to me and said get in the truck, He said he was going to take me home. Sped up to a nearby boat ramp and told me to say goodbye. Drowning was my biggest fear and he knew that. He stopped the truck. We went back to the campsite where he held a knife to my throat and told me to make a video telling my kids goodbye.
After crying and pleading with him he pulled down his pants. While the knife was still at my throat he forced me to do oral until I choked so much I passed out. Days went by. Nights were the scariest. There were other people involved and I would lay there tied up (he screwed the mattress to the board underneath) watching only shadows to see what was going to happen next. Awful things. The men got off on my fear.
I begged him to end my life at that point. One day when I was free to move, I found a bottle of pills and went to swallow them all. He stopped me. I was so sick. One of the times I was raped a tampon got shoved and stuck inside of me and gave me an infection that spread quickly. I could barely move.
The last thing he did to me was wrapped me in thick plastic to suffocate me. I snapped, I started laughing and I was happy. I thought it was finally ending. Instead, he stopped. It was no longer fun at that point. He poked a hole in my fuel injector and removed a spark plug in hopes the truck would catch fire.
Told me to go, get as far as I could. It was now a cat and mouse game to him. I drove an hour away, pulled into a car wash and called the police. They showed up so quick. Had a warrant within two hours and found him. Arrested him right away. He is now serving 20 years in prison. Should be more but at least he is in a cage where he belongs and can't do what he did to me to anyone else.
I thought I would be forever trapped in the prison in my mind but I found a higher power and it set me free. I still have night terrors and flashbacks but fear no longer holds me. I am now a warrior and share my story to help as many women as I can. We are not alone and I'm here to tell you it does get better.